Music Mondays - "A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri

No one told me about infertility. This is a powerful video. And a great song. 

"One step closer." "I have died every day waiting for you."

Music Mondays - "Come Tomorrow" by Juliet Lloyd

This is the perfect two week wait song. 

"You're well aware of what you're missing, you count up every sacrifice you've made, but don't you ever stop believing that it's worth it all someday"

Music Mondays - "So Hard" by Dixie Chicks

Music is my therapy and this song is no exception.

"It felt like a given, something a woman is born to do. A natural ambition to see a reflection of me and you.."

Secondary Infertility

I have a slight addiction to youtube videos. This is a good one that explains that feelings you go through when you have secondary infertility. The woman in the video has primary infertility but she hits the nail on the head when describing it. "Don't be greedy", that is something a think about every single day. And I know exactly what I am missing. Pain is pain. Primary or secondary. The ache is within all of us.

Baby dreams

Before my husband and I got married we had decided that we would start trying for a baby right after our wedding. I honestly believed we would have a baby nine months later. I was so confident in fact that I purchased 2 "baby" related items.

I bought this shirt. I had (still have) all of these dreams about announcing our pregnancy by having my daughter where this shirt to a family dinner or celebration with our extended family. Say for Mother's Day, Father's Day, Christmas, oh and it could work for 4th of July, or how about President's Day?! Any day! This shirt is a year and a half old. It no longer fits. I won't be buying another until I see those 2 TWO pink lines!

 

And I bought this onesie. It's a personal joke between my husband and I. I know he would love it and laugh, a lot. I had dreamed of putting this onesie into a gift bag with the BFP pregnancy test and surprising him. Now the surprise won't be, "I'm having a baby!". The surprise will be, "we are FINALLY having a baby!!!!!".

Life throws us many obstacles and this path was not one we had expected. One step closer.

Infertility is...

This is a very touching video I found through Fighting for Fertility.

Music Mondays - "What Faith Can Do" by Kutless

This is my #1 favorite infertility song. I listen to it several times a day.

"Everybody is scared to death when they decide to take that step." That step for us is IVF and I am terrified.